yesterday was my birthday despite much protest and, eventually, my own indifference. i turned sixteen. we had the whole family over for easter, most of both sides. as the afternoon progressed i felt more and more thankful. finally in the early evening i had this incredible urge to wish everyone in the entire world a happy birthday. it was the most amazing feeling. im still feeling it. i wish it could happen really, throw away all this belligerence and let everyone know that today (and everyday?) is their fucking day and to seize it, take it by the horns and run with it. im not talking from much experience and its illogical to think anyone would ever listen to me but ive tried it a bunch, and seizing the day is fucking perfect and amazing and it could all begin with a happy birthday. so happy birthday, regardless of my feelings towards you, or yours toward me.