Various Artists

Thanksgiving was delightful, time well spent with the cousins and "the random guy at the party," my cousin Frankie's boyfriend Ben. He was my BFF of the night. We were all drunk.

I've noticed something. A lot of things make me feel compelled to listen to good music. I come home from driving somewhere, I want to listen to good music. I masturbate (rarely, I swear!,) and I want to listen to good music. Staring at Katie Holme's hairline tonight, watching my new Dawson's Creek Season Five DVD with my sister, I wanted to listen to good music. The trouble comes when I open iTunes and I just can't pick anything. I usually go to my "Recently Added" smartplaylist and pick what looks neat or unknown. A lot of times, I end up wishing I had a New Pornographers album, because they seem to me to be good music. I almost bought one today, actually. Instead, I dropped fifty bucks on aforementioned Dawson's discs, and so far, it seems like money well fucking spent.

So I'm a senior, where did all the time go? I'm overwhelmed with every thing I haven't yet done and all the things I can do/want to do. Like, it's time for me to travel to Europe right? And the west coast too? And Mexico and South America? Weekend in Canada? I've barely seen New York City. But I forgot what I've wanted to do most! Backpacking through post-bloc Eastern Europe and Russia... and then of course, domestic adventures like getting a job in a kitchen and an internship at Magnet Magazine or Jade Tree Records.

Which kind of a good segue into my next thing.

I wish I could have my summer back. The one I just had, between junior and senior year. I feel like I missed out on so much because of a certain something that I decided it'd be a good idea to dedicate my life to; lots of parties and alcohol, days at the beach, laying in fields, trespassing, scavenger hunts, epic capture the flag matches never planned. All with really pretty Kirsten Dunst-esque teenage girls until I settled (briefly) with someone more on the Katie Holmes side of things. Looking ahead to summer 2008, I'm afraid I was locked away through the warmer season where everything happens and next year, it's going to be all business. Two jobs in preparation for the school year ahead, friends off doing the same thing as me, a brick wall of orientations and moving where August should be. I'm fucking terrified.

Endnote: My friend Allison's brother Justin, who is becoming a friend in his own right, is in an awesome band called Channel Underground. He's been sending me some of his own recordings lately and I'm posting one of them. It's called "Ancient Sock" under the name Little Kingdoms. I think it's something, he's got a unique way of doing things for a freshman.